My Overdose on Acetaminophen
I remember that night so clearly when I felt so lonely in the world. I went to the discount store and bought three bottles of pain relievers, which had a warning label mentioning they could be fatal and could cause liver damage. I was not really worried about liver damage since I planned for them to be fatal.
My daughter was a teenager and her father offered her money and a car, things I had to work hard to have for us, furthermore she mention me she wanted to live with him. It hurt but I was willing to give it a try. Somehow, though, I ended up losing her in all of that.
Looking back, I know it was her feeling bad about making that decision. Still, that time was so hard as well as I felt alone and ashamed. How could this have happened? How did I lose my beautiful precious baby girl when I had thought I was such a good mother?
I began taking the pills because I could not stand the pain of being alone. For sixteen years I had been a mother and now I felt suddenly lost and alone. She kept making excuses not to see me till finally she told me she did not want to see me anymore, period. I thought I had nothing else to live for and consequently I took nearly the entire first bottle and was preparing to open another one.
Definitely I just wanted to go to sleep and never wake up, but then I realized that if I did that, I would be losing all chances of ever having another day with her or even worse, I would be leaving her a problem she did not deserve: guilt over her mother’s suicide. I picked up the phone and dialled 911 and told the operator what I had done.
The paramedics saved my life that night, but on the other hand I secretly began taking overdoses on a regular basis. Finally I made the decision to call a drug addiction rehab and thanks to their help I have been free of my acetaminophen addiction for two years now. I do have some liver damage but I learn how to take care of myself and I know I was really luckier than a lot of people are. The treatment program not only helped me overcome my acetaminophen addiction, but also helped me to get counselling for other areas of my life as well.
Today my daughter and I talk on the phone and she is starting college. I would have missed out on so much if I had ended it all that night two and a half years ago. I am grateful for everything.
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i am 13 and i have been taking overdoses for 1-2 years now.i cant stop but i have stopped overdosing.i still take pills everyday though
My brother has threatened to overdose and kill homself if i keep overdosing but i feel he doesnt understand…..i mean im trying to come off of the pills slowly,not all together cause im not sure i can do it that way but idk im just trying
The feeling of being alone, I know that all too well and like you i was able to find hope in the darkness. I’m happy that you were able to get help and was able to see all the precious moments that make life worth it. Please stay happy and realize that contrary to what this world tells you, you are only human…so be human and live. Thank you for sharing. : )
Hello blanca,
You are such a young girl to be overdosing on such strong meds, to be honest, my question to you is why do you feel like you wanna take your life. You are so young, I always wonder why when were young it feels as though we have lived enough for the whole world, but Since im older now, im glad to say that when opportunity presented it self I did nt take my self out, or more so God didnt let me die. You have so much life ahead of you. Please be encouraged!! life is worth living for, but i understand how you feel.