Drug Addiction Stories

I remember that night so clearly when I felt so lonely in the world. I went to the discount store and bought three bottles of pain relievers, which had a warning label mentioning they could be fatal and could cause liver damage.  I was not really worried about liver damage since I planned for them to be fatal.

My daughter was a teenager and her father offered her money and a car, things I had to work hard to have for us, furthermore she mention me she wanted to live with him.  It hurt but I was willing to give it a try.  Somehow, though, I ended up losing her in all of that.

Looking back, I know it was her feeling bad about making that decision.  Still, that time was so hard as well as I felt alone and ashamed.  How could this have happened? How did I lose my beautiful precious baby girl when I had thought I was such a good mother?

I began taking the pills because I could not stand the pain of being alone.  For sixteen years I had been a mother and now I felt suddenly lost and alone.  She kept making excuses not to see me till finally she told me she did not want to see me anymore, period.  I thought I had nothing else to live for and consequently I took nearly the entire first bottle and was preparing to open another one.

Definitely I just wanted to go to sleep and never wake up, but then I realized that if I did that, I would be losing all chances of ever having another day with her or even worse, I would be leaving her a problem she did not deserve: guilt over her mother’s suicide.  I picked up the phone and dialled 911 and told the operator what I had done.

The paramedics saved my life that night, but on the other hand I secretly began taking overdoses on a regular basis. Finally I made the decision to call a drug addiction rehab and thanks to their help I have been free of my acetaminophen addiction for two years now.  I do have some liver damage but I learn how to take care of myself and I know I was really luckier than a lot of people are.  The treatment program not only helped me overcome my acetaminophen addiction, but also helped me to get counselling for other areas of my life as well.

Today my daughter and I talk on the phone and she is starting college. I would have missed out on so much if I had ended it all that night two and a half years ago.  I am grateful for everything.